Value of the week: Doing things well
Prompt : How things can go wrong.
Once, when I was grade 10 I had to go through a very dark
place. At one point or another in our lives we have to go through this place.
When I was a young boy I didn’t really have many friends and I was a loner.
Until I came into grade 10 where I found a family. I was the happiest person
ever I found a group of people who accepted me, a group of people who loved me.
During this period of happiness I found a best friend, I’ve never had a best
friend before. I thought to myself, “Can this year get any better”. I thought I
was doing everything well until everything went terribly wrong. I had a fight
with my best friend and we didn’t talk to each other for months.
During this time I was going through depression because he was my first and only best friend ever. I learned things never go how you think they will. I did not treat this situation like I should’ve. I will always regret what happened between him and me. Since then however we seem to be doing better, he and I are friends again but I use this term loosely. I don’t think he will ever let me be his best friend again and I don’t blame him. I still miss having him always with me though. This entire situation taught me that things can go terribly wrong in an instant and you just regret everything that you have done.
I know we have all done things that we regret, and this situation was the one at the top of my list. I want to be completely honest with you guys i went into a deep depression, i thought about cutting myself, i thought of ending it all just for the pain to stop, i cried myself to sleep every night. I was in so much pain, I wrote poems to try and control my emotions but it just made it worse because all the poems i made was about him. This went on for a year until i started to feel better, the pain was not so painful. I tried to forget the past and look the future. That strategy worked for a while then every now and again i would get flashbacks of what happened and i would just break down crying. I'm still trying to move past what happened but i don't think i'll ever move on.
"People say forget the past and look to the future, but without our past we have no future."
During this time I was going through depression because he was my first and only best friend ever. I learned things never go how you think they will. I did not treat this situation like I should’ve. I will always regret what happened between him and me. Since then however we seem to be doing better, he and I are friends again but I use this term loosely. I don’t think he will ever let me be his best friend again and I don’t blame him. I still miss having him always with me though. This entire situation taught me that things can go terribly wrong in an instant and you just regret everything that you have done.
I know we have all done things that we regret, and this situation was the one at the top of my list. I want to be completely honest with you guys i went into a deep depression, i thought about cutting myself, i thought of ending it all just for the pain to stop, i cried myself to sleep every night. I was in so much pain, I wrote poems to try and control my emotions but it just made it worse because all the poems i made was about him. This went on for a year until i started to feel better, the pain was not so painful. I tried to forget the past and look the future. That strategy worked for a while then every now and again i would get flashbacks of what happened and i would just break down crying. I'm still trying to move past what happened but i don't think i'll ever move on.
"People say forget the past and look to the future, but without our past we have no future."
:( !!
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